Thursday, February 26, 2004
Space time
Time for myself.... prioritising.... what was that I was saying about expressing needs? Do I just withdraw instead of expressing myself? I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. Once again in my attempts to please everyone I hurt the one I love most and thus start to think my efforts are futile or at least so utterly not worth it. I take on everyone else's problems and I seem to get a recurrent illness... what is my body trying to tell me? I'm talking too much? I'm not expressing myself? Or maybe the least debilitating way for my body to tuck itself into bed and not talk to anyone. Do I need to shuffle through my suite of reactions one last time and see which are now obsolete? Do I assume they are all obsolete?
Time for myself.... prioritising.... what was that I was saying about expressing needs? Do I just withdraw instead of expressing myself? I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. Once again in my attempts to please everyone I hurt the one I love most and thus start to think my efforts are futile or at least so utterly not worth it. I take on everyone else's problems and I seem to get a recurrent illness... what is my body trying to tell me? I'm talking too much? I'm not expressing myself? Or maybe the least debilitating way for my body to tuck itself into bed and not talk to anyone. Do I need to shuffle through my suite of reactions one last time and see which are now obsolete? Do I assume they are all obsolete?
// posted by Beagle @ 1:03 pm 
