Wednesday, April 07, 2004
Tell me I'm fabulous!
My partner reassures me and I get snappy - what are you reassuring me for? I'm absolutely fine and confident! Or was I? Aha! Again he sees me more clearly than I can. My facades are well developed yet he sees through them to the part that he can help with. I think I only want praise and reassurance about tasks new to me or stretching for me but it isn't at all, it's the ones that I think I do well that I really need the pat on the head for. I know I can rise to a challenge, and do well for a beginner. Can I become an expert at something? I've always spread myself thinly and not excelled, mind wanders, short attention span. Afraid to succeed, but why? Because it won't be noticed? Where is the satisfaction in a job well done if noone else sees how well? Why not just keep trying new things? I am tired of that kind of praise. Again my wonderful partner amazes me...
My partner reassures me and I get snappy - what are you reassuring me for? I'm absolutely fine and confident! Or was I? Aha! Again he sees me more clearly than I can. My facades are well developed yet he sees through them to the part that he can help with. I think I only want praise and reassurance about tasks new to me or stretching for me but it isn't at all, it's the ones that I think I do well that I really need the pat on the head for. I know I can rise to a challenge, and do well for a beginner. Can I become an expert at something? I've always spread myself thinly and not excelled, mind wanders, short attention span. Afraid to succeed, but why? Because it won't be noticed? Where is the satisfaction in a job well done if noone else sees how well? Why not just keep trying new things? I am tired of that kind of praise. Again my wonderful partner amazes me...
// posted by Beagle @ 10:02 am 
